the used

 These eyes have alot to say. For only being 21 soon to be 22 in February. Im i happy? Of course, i have my family, and the people who care about me alot im surrounded by them plenty. I think in every ones life you just hit a point and you think you need more or less or anything else but every thing you NEED (not necessarily want) is smothering you and you just kind take it for granted.. In the great words of Dr.Sues "if you are happy with what you have, then what you have will make you happy!" I think it is every parents goal to to good for there children, they just have to remember to do good by themselves. Lead by example. Make sure you are staying sane for your self so you don't take it out on them, only your kids are expecting you to be a good parent, so be good for your self and then you can be good for them.   

Just Some Thoughts

Oh, my husband Thomas. He is one of the most caring, truthful, meanest,heavy hearts i know. I guess that's why i married him. I have drifted from him lately,i have been being a complete bitch to him. i love him i really do i feel im going threw some very internal changes right now im 21 with 2kiOh, my husband Thomas. He is one of the most caring, truthful, meanest,heavy hearts i know. I guess that's why i married him. I have drifted from him lately,i have been being a complete bitch to him. i love him i really do i feel im going threw some very internal changes right now im 21 with 2kids 2 c-sections, i just don't feel passion any more. I m failing miserably because i choose unhealthy out lets to deal with it.........It's kinda like i'ma teen thinking i know it all but when it comes down to i don't and im scared to go threw it. I know we will get threw it we have been together for 3yrs and i wan't to be that couple who celebrate our 50th anniversary. ds 2 c-sections, i just don't feel passion any more. I m failing miserably because i choose unhealthy out lets to deal with it.........It's kinda like i'ma teen thinking i know it all but when it comes down to i don't and im scared to go threw it. I know we will get threw it we have been together for 3yrs and i wan't to be that couple who celebrate our 50th anniversary. 

lips

RED LIPSTICK IAM BRINGING IT BACK

well, its over due

fml

so im so fucking in need of some one who can tell me why the fuck  every one is out for themselves when they have family,friends,people they say they care about. If you do not truly care about some one then why waist the time,breath, energy and space? I just don't know.... I think it is more of the lieing to you're face about how much they mean to you, more like how , much you mean to shit on them? Be vindictive? Cruel, it is to play with the emotions of others.........................................I know every one will not always get along but when you can set a example wouldn't you? It seems like there is more questions then answers in this life.

Kentucky

A white house with beige shingles, one car garage, and a brown shed in the fenced in back yard.There are two red chairs next to each other out front about 10 feet from the front door along side of the house. The house is  surrounded by bramble.The mother had a spice garden in the back yard near the shed,  on a clear day with nothing but the sent of cinnamon in the air, the smell felt like sugar being poured down you're throat. The address was 257 south Keppler Street in the suburbs of Bellewood, Kentucky. A small town of about 300 people so, need less to say every one kinda knows every one here. It was all to quite the night "it" happend. The Cobain family lived in this white house on Keppler Street. Mother Pam, father Warner,brother Deniss and daughter Jessica. She was a beautiful 17 year old girl with sandy brown hair that reached toward her chest and curled at the end,and green eyes the sparkled even on the cloudiest days and darkest of nights.

 "Neither a borrower nor a lender be; For loan oft loses both itself and friend, And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry. This above all: to thine ownself be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man.Farewell: my blessing season this in thee!"
--Lord Polonius, Hamlet Act I, Scene 3 "The bell scared me i was really into the reading!" Gasped Jessica, as she closed her book and put it in her back pack.She walks out in to the hall way getting ready to jump for joy today was Friday and Sunday her dad was going to take her the horse farm he worked on..Dennis was 28 and in listed in the army for 3 years now. Last spring Pam Cobain received some terrible news, her son had been missing in action for a month. Devistated by the news Jessica's parents had started to become more controlling over her for fear they would lose another child. "Hi mom i'am home!" Yelled Jessica as she bursed threw the front door to find her mom on the couch quietly weeping. "Mom, are you ok?"asked Jessica." Yes dear, i'am fine how was you're day at school?" her mother replied. With a smile on her face Jessica leaned in kissed her mother on the fourhead and told her every thing would be ok.As her mother wiped her face she and Jessica went to the kitchen and started to prepare dinner.


"I was at the farm today and Scott Donldson brought by his pure breed female  Mountain Pleasure for board and keep for the weekend. I've never seen a man take such pride in his horse before." Warner says over his plate of fried chicken. "That's nice honey."say's Pam, "Dad are we still on for Sunday? I would love to see her!?" Jessica excitedly replies "Of course we are." Warner tells Jessica. After light talk Jessica clears the table and does her evening chores she enters the family room and sits on the floor next to were her mother was enjoying a romance novel by Mary Jo Putney. Jessica woke up late on Saturday she new it was going to be a lazy Saturday.Her mom was in the back yard tending to her spice garden and her father was reading the news paper at the table. Jessica went to the kitchen and sat down at the table with her father,while eating a bowl of cereal he was telling her a little bit about the Mountain Pleasure breed."The Mountain Pleasure breed is a gated breed of horse 

penny

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